AlFatihah dear child

"Kesian baby Mummy"

Allah pinjamkan dia for almost 4 months ikut mummy ke mana2, to work, to events, interviews, redah jam, masuk meeting, lepek tengok Mr Arrogant...

Baby was confirmed without heartbeat on my birthday. I was devastated then. And semalam selesai sudah proses forced labour, melahirkan dgn penuh drama (didnt even make it to the labour room), dnc di bawah paras sedar (love and hate u ubat bius!)... Dan lepas Asar and just before the rain, suami selamat kebumikan our lifeless child whose sex cant be determined coz he/she was too small.

Alhamdulillah for suami, mama, papa, sisters, family and friends who were always there supporting me.

Love you so much my child. Doakan Mummy and Daddy dapat berjumpa denganmu di Jannah. Amin.

Of children and medals

Something of a continuation from the last post. Something to do about my "protectiveness" over my children. Mak lah katakan.

I have listened to so much not-so-nice stuff about being pregnant/having children (more than 3 that is) etc. ayat2 mcm "suburnya depa tu..." bunyi spt positif tapi nadanya ada kala berbau sindir. All these taken with a pinch of salt but tidaklah menyakitkan hati, jika dibandingkan dgn satu peristiwa yg cukup mengguris perasaan.

I realize in the past week, ada org boleh cakap sesuatu yg hmmmm... How do we categorize this? To me agak kejam. Apatah lagi dtg dari yg ada pertalian darah. 

Berbangga dengan pencapaian anak memang sesuatu yg lumrah bagi mereka bergelar parents. Kita pun tumpang happy... Why not. Such inspiration! But there is a huge difference between bragging/show off to spite a person and talking like a proud parent. You can surely tell. 

I tumpang bangga your kid collects so much medals that you have to find boxes to keep them. Tapi perlu ke bersindir seakan2 org lain tak mampu hasilkan anak berkualiti? Motip??

But I am more proud that I have four gold medals given by Allah, tak perlu nak risau depa berhabuk pun. And every single day they have shown me so many achievements that I wont be able to write or tell others about because saya tak larat nak tulis lah!

For all that, saya amat bersyukur. Alhamdulillah...

Insyaallah another gold medal in april 2014. Woohoooo!
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